Never Grow Up!!!

So like a few weeks ago my mom told me all about how I have to grow up, and take responsibility and how I'm going on 17 years old and need to start taking my own life into my own hands.

She's right, of course.  I have to start focusing on school and eventually what I want to do in college and where I want to work and what God's plan for my life is.

I took it to heart.  I spent a long while soul searching, praying, pretty much begging for God to give me a giant NEON SIGN telling me what to do.  And to be honest, he did.

I was struggling a LOT with having to choose between my hobbies and my priorities. I knew school was a priority, but that's not what I mean.  I had to pick between my viola and my writing, which one God really wanted for me.  After a lot of thinking, praying and frustration (and even tears), I decided that it was writing. I like viola....but that's just it. I LIKE it.  It doesn't set my soul on fire like writing does.

Yay a decision!!! :) Our church has been doing some sermons lately on how when you start following God's dream, doors start to open and he shows you the WHAT before the HOW. Yeah I'm seeing that. xD Almost a week after I made my decision, I was contacted by a college that I had researched and gotten super excited about.  The college (called Full Sail University) called me and I talked to an admissions councilor.

Now I'm only 16...I'm not even halfway done with high school, let alone ready for college. But I AM thinking ahead, and I'm thinking I really like Full Sail. :)  I'm growing up...I'm making decisions, I'm thinking about college, I'm preparing for my future......

But I'm honestly still a 5 year old trapped in a 16 year old's body. XD  I can be mature and take care of kids and do my school work and finish projects, and talk to colleges and etc.etc.etc.  But then again........

So why should I?! ;D

I rock out to The Fresh Beat Band....constantly.  

(that's one of my favorite songs...my favorite lyric is "we play in harmony, to the key of you and me" :'D) 

Guilty of loving this one too.  Guys I know the lyrics, the RAP parts and everything. afsdlkjfd I'm pathetic.

And obsessed geez.

This is me and Audy's song. XD It's so accurate.  Favorite line: "When I'm all alone, and want to cry, my cheer me up thought is you and I" :'D

I have Disney movie marathons and sing alongs...I almost started CRYING when my mom took me to Disney last week.  I skipped around like a little girl as we walked through the parks, and danced to the music.

And I've realized something.  You can grow up as much as you want without totally growing up. There's a difference between forgoing all childlike things, movies, shows, music, toys, etc. and being a mature adult.  Because I can do both, right?  

Well why not?!  While doing my highschool work I was singing Fresh Beat Band!  XD  I'm writing essays while listening to Disney songs!!! A few weeks ago when I was babysitting after I put the kid to bed I danced around their (very large) house while pretending I was my fanfic characters!

So here's the point of this post.  :D  Take Peter Pan's advice!!!! NEVER GROW UP!!!  I don't ever plan on doing so...though I'm maturing.  I'm gonna live in Neverland...still a little kid at heart. :D I love toys, I love playing games, I love singing songs to little kid shows, I love watching Disney movies and even dressing up American Girl dolls with my sister! :D

So think of a wonderful thought...any happy little thought.  ;)  And FLY...fly like a five year old would. :D  Because you CAN.  Never grow up, never lose the fun five year old spirit. ;D 

Love from your youthful Blogger,
Grace xoxo