Jesus is my Boyfriend

Okay....take this as you want it, a rant post, an inspirational one...I'm writing my thoughts and my heart now.

I am tired of girls falling madly in love with every guy they come across who speaks to them, or is nice, or is "hot".  Where is the chivalry?  I personally, am praying that it's not dead.  I miss when guys and girls "courted" and were best friends before they started dating, making out, planning weddings, and doing unthinkable things.  I don't like how fast things move...and honestly, I think that technology is partially to blame for this.

Through social media websites, especially Facebook, people who see each other once a week, can talk and have tons of conversations in nanoseconds.  Now I'm not saying Facebook is bad...I use it for business and it's great, I mean when you are suddenly in love with someone because they talk to you over Facebook chat....that's when it becomes problematic.

Two examples of classic, good, old-time romances....one real and the other fictional.

John and Abigail Adams.  They were married for 54 years, during one of the hardest periods of history.  John was often away on business trips, fighting for America's Independence on the legal and political side of things.  Abigail tended the homefront, caring for soldiers when need be, taking care of her family and home, and John when he was home.  She and John were both still very much in love when Abigail died at the age of 73.  The two kept in touch through letters.  Snail mail!!  The letters were often addressed to "My Dearest Friend" and both wrote about their love and loneliness during the war.  In a metaphorical sense, I'd like to find my Dearest Friend, who will write to me and keep in touch no matter the circumstances or battles life throws at us.

Han Solo and Princess Leia Organa.  (Shut up, it counts, for all you non-Star Wars fans...I know there are a few of you out there...O.o)  Han and Leia are an example of a good, classic romance.  They start out hating each other, but in the end, they are partners for all time.  When the two meet, the friction is evident.  Han is a cocky-know-it-all smuggler, and Leia is a no-nonsense-Princess/Politician who doesn't take crap from anybody, including and especially Captain Solo.  Eventually, when tensions rose and life-or-death situations were faced, true feelings were revealed and reveled in.  Han and Leia fell in love and did things right by each other, and didn't rush into their relationship.  Leia didn't go all ga-ga for Han either, just because he wore tight-fitting pants or was handsome.  Good for her.

Now...why can't we have strong relationships like Abigail and John?  Or strong women like Leia?

Okay, here me out.  I personally do not think that at 12, 13, 14, 15+ you are experiencing true love.  If you DO have a boyfriend at 15+, good for you, that's really nice that you have a friend.  I'm talking about when you are 12, 13, 14 and sometimes YOUNGER.  It's not necessary to think that guys are "sexy" at 12.  Or that you want to marry someone at 14.  You've barely started to live life and you think you're in love?  No.

I've decided that Jesus is my boyfriend.  I have my fictional guys, but I can 100% honestly say that I do not know ANYONE that I have a crush on.  I am not "in love" with anyone, and I do not want to marry anyone.
Jesus needs to be first in your heart before you can even THINK about dating, from a Christian perspective.  Because, if Jesus isn't there, and isn't most-important, how can you expect to find love?  He holds the most love for you in the entire world and universe, more than any human EVER could.  Wouldn't you like to feel that love?  Let HIM in.

Jesus has a perfect plan for your life.  He has it all written and decided, and if you make good, Christ centered decisions, then you will find that perfect person that he created for you.  True love IS out there.  My parents have it....I know it's real.

I was asked recently when I'm going to grow up and start liking "REAL" boys.  Apparently Luke Skywalker and Steve Rogers aren't good enough for some people.....
Guess what?  I AM grown up.  Just because I live in my own little world doesn't mean that I am not awake and involved with the world around me.  In fact, I'm probably more in tune with the rest of the world than most are.

Anyway, my response to that question was this:
"I'll start liking "REAL BOYS" when Jesus puts the right "REAL BOY" in my life.  The one he MADE for me, the one that he CHOSE for me, and the one that is RIGHT for me.  Until then, I'll wait very patiently, with my fictional boyfriends."
This is the truth.  I am NOT rushing anything.  My mom and I had a very long discussion the other day about this.  We read a very sweet book called "The Princess and the Kiss".  It described your heart, love and virginity as the Princess's Kiss, and how she needed to save her precious gift of her kiss for the perfect person that God had planned for her.  This included not wasting her time on people who weren't part of God's plan, or would distract her from her future true love.  The Princess was wise, and saved her first kiss for a boy who loved her for her, and saved his kiss for her.  On their wedding day, the two exchanged kisses, and then were able to later bless their child with her own kiss.
The story made me cry.  Because the concept of your precious "kiss" is totally disregarded nowadays!!!  No one cares about that, or should I say, not many do.  Society teaches us to do what we FEEL is good, and FEEL is right.  Well guess what?  The Bible tells us to be careful of our feelings, because they can deceive us. You let JESUS guide your heart, and keep it guarded and safe until he is ready to give you your person worthy of your Kiss.

After discussing with my mom....I am even more assured now that I am doing the RIGHT THING by waiting and not begging for attention from guys, by flirting with them, or freaking out and drooling all over them.  I am doing the right thing by waiting for the right person to come into my life, and to not waste my time on people who AREN'T him.  Because as nice as it is to have a boyfriend when you're a teenager, why is it all that necessary to give away parts of your heart to someone who you aren't going to marry?  I want my first boyfriend to be my only one, and the one that will become my husband.

And for the record, I know that IS possible, because my dad's co-worker's daughter had her relationship work out that way.  :)

As of right now, I'm not even all that interested in boys.  I can talk to them, I DO talk to them, and I have a few guy friends, but this doesn't mean that because I have a conversation with a person of the opposite gender that I'm automatically in love with them.

Example.  I talk with a guy in my math class sometimes.  He's pretty nice, very funny, and cool.  One of my IRL friends is crushing on this guy.  I mentioned once that I talked to him in math class, and suddenly it was a miracle of God that I even got him to look at me.  I was like, "Know what we talked about?  Video games.  Because I know about that, and I was able to relate to him about it.  No big deal."
Then I got..."Oh but isn't he SOOOO cute?  And just so hilarious?"
"Yeah, he's funny.."
"AND HOT!"
"umm...no?"
*facepalm*

You see, I am very tired of guys being "hot" and "sexy" and "cute".  Let me rephrase that.  I'm tired of girls OBSESSING over them.  Why can't a guy and a girl be just friends?  Yes, there are a few girls and guys who are actually in happy, stable, safe and good relationships, but most of the time it's very one-sided from both sides!  XD  Either the girl likes the guy and won't say anything, or DOES say something and then things go to hell pretty fast...or the guy likes the girl and insults her every chance possible, making fun of her and making her miserable instead of telling her that she's pretty or nice or anything.  Where is the chivalry??  Where is that respect?  I wouldn't want to give my Kiss to any one of those people, regardless of how nice or hot or whatever they are!  I want that one special person, and I won't settle for anything less, because it's what God promised to me, and He NEVER breaks a promise.

I usually dread Thursdays.  I'll be honest and explain why.  Most of my friends would fall into the "boy obsessed" category.  Unfortunately, the guys and the girls (all in the 13 (ISH) and up category) are grouped together at P.E.  So we get to run around with each other, the girls giggling and making fools out of themselves over the guys, and the guys being total jerks to each other AND the girls (sometimes, there are exceptions to this) for 3 hours.
Fun....?
Anyway....I actually ENJOY when the girls are separated.  Everyone else complains and whines about it, but I don't mind.  I like being with the younger girls, and offering them encouragement and love and being the "big sister" (since I'm the oldest).

I am sooooo tired of this boy stuff.  Honestly.  I am tired of hearing about what so-and-so said on Facebook, and that this-guy has a girlfriend now, and bla-bla-bla said this to so-and-so over the weekend.  Seriously.  I'm sick of it.
As cruel as it sounds, in 10+ years from now, I doubt any of these boys who are so worthy of obsession *Sarcasm, Sarcasm* will still be apart of my life, or so important in it, at the very least.

My IRL best friend told me about an experience she had with a boy, who was very nice to her and funny and sweet and stuff.  That's great, I told her, I'm happy for her.
But then on Facebook, she gets all freaked out, sending me panicked messages asking me if she should send him a message first, or if that's creepy, or if she should just wait for him to do it, or if she shouldn't do anything at all because he's really cute and she doesn't want to mess this up.

....MESS WHAT UP??? YOU TALKED TO HIM FOR A FEW HOURS TODAY.  YOU ARE TOO YOUNG FOR THIS!!!! I AM TOO YOUNG!!! WHY ARE YOU EVEN STRESSING ABOUT THIS????

I honestly don't know.  She's younger than me, and I am NOT thinking that way about things.  I have quite a few guy friends, and I have NO problem talking to them, in real life and over the internet.  I don't understand why it's such a big deal.  I told her so.  I asked her why she was freaking out, just send him a message and say hello.  Why was that so hard?   I do that all the time....  But that evoked more freaking out, accusations of me, and my sincerity (I'm sorry...that point was valid...xD), and more.  She asked for my opinion, but got upset when I told her.  Umm....okaaaaay?

Later she cornered me about it again, and I honestly told her that in my opinion, we were both far too young to be thinking about boys that way, and that it was inappropriate and necessary.  The conversation that followed honestly made me squeal.  With delight believe it or not... ;)

Her:  and liking boys is ok because its not like i'm doing anything about

Me:  IMO I think it's a waste of time

Her:  you never going to like boys !?!?!?!

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Me:  No, just not right now. I'll wait.

Her:  for what?

Me:  The right partner.




For those of you who don't know.....that last bit is a quote from Captain America.  Steve Rogers tells Peggy Carter that he's waiting for the right partner for him.  One more reason why I love him.  <3333  I have taken that to heart a lot lately....I'm waiting for the right partner.  After typing that, I literally squealed in delight, because I both used a Captain America quote, and because it was so true!!!  I am waiting for the right partner.

Jesus needs to be first.  I'm at peace with guys, whether I crush on them or not, because I know that Jesus has a set plan for me and my romance.  He already has chosen the husband that is perfect and made specifically for me, and I cannot wait to meet him!!!  Maybe that's why I don't get all freaked out....because I already have a boyfriend....and his name is Jesus.  <3  Jesus puts my heart at ease, and until he puts that person in my life, I'm romancing Jesus, and growing my relationship with HIM.

So my friends, in conclusion of this rambly, ranty, and hopefully inspirational post, remember that JESUS has to rule your heart, not boys.  Give Him your love, and you will be surely blessed with love in return.  ;)

God bless.  Enjoy a song that were laid on my heart while writing this.  :)

And Fireproof, which is featured in this song/music video, is one of my favorite movies.  Everyone, married, not married, or just waiting, should see it.  :)  I bawl like a baby every time...XD

P.S. You can reverse this if you're a guy, to make it work for girls.  ;)

Happy Valentine's Day!

“"I’m looking for qualities beyond the physical" ~Dr. Erskine in Captain America

A common misconception in my generation and especially among girls is that if you see a boy, who is physically attractive, and you look at him, even for a moment, you are automatically in love. 

Well guess what?  I am firmly against this.  It annoys me to no end when people do this.  First of all, I am only fifteen, way too young to be dating or even looking at boys that way.  Second, if it’s for fun and just joking…so be it, that’s cool, just don’t make it serious. 

It seems like I am constantly picking at my IRL (in “real life”) friends…but this gets me often.  Okay, so allow me to set the scene. 

I am at P.E. group, where there are about five or six other girls (including me) and about twelve to fifteen other guys.  A few of those guys happen to be fairly attractive.  They’re athletic and are honestly pretty cute.  Just because I look at them, or notice that they exist, or remember their name does NOT mean that I am in love with them, or have a crush on them or am planning my wedding to him.  Because the physical attractiveness (though a bonus) is not what matters to me.  I am not looking for a hot guy to date or marry….that’s not what‘s important.  I want a good man as my boyfriend/husband. 

I think this is why I am attracted to the fictional character of Steve Rogers.  He is a GOOD MAN.  Yes, he’s incredibly physically attractive, but that’s a bonus.  I liked “skinny” Steve….before he became Captain America.  I like his heart.  He has a good heart; he cares for others and thinks of them before himself. He respects women and his friends, and himself.  He is humble.  He is kind. 

I want my husband to be like Steve Rogers.  I want a man who has a strong heart for God, and a firm foundation in his faith.  I want a man who will tell me the truth, and also what I want to hear.  I want a man who will love me for me, not because I am a super skinny lingerie model, or have a big butt or large chest or anything like that.  I want a guy who will geek out with me, get excited over Star Wars and Super Heroes, and who speaks my language.  I want someone who knows my heart and is my best friend.  I want someone who agrees with me politically and morally, and holds the same values I do.  Someone who will want to homeschool.  Someone who will stand by me when the going gets tough.  Someone to laugh with, and who won’t be ashamed if we’re a tad bit insane.  Someone who is humble, and sweet, and loving and smart and loyal and faithful and strong.  Someone who has a good heart.

(yes, that is a steve rogers valentine, made for me by my awesome friend chris!! thanks chris!! :D) 

And I know he is out there.  God has designed that perfect someone for me.  I will wait until he arrives, patiently and mooning over fictional men in the meantime.  But I will wait.  I know that everything happens in God’s perfect time, and that when it is HIS time, things will go according to HIS plan.  ;)

So who else hates it that people of the opposite gender can’t just be friends?!  Who thinks that it’s as annoying as heck when people make a big deal about the stupidest, smallest things that have to do with a boy? 

I do.  I don’t mind if we’re just playing around, but sometimes it just is really annoying, ya know?  I mean….just because I think someone is cute, or is nice, or I remember their name, or I say hi to them doesn’t mean that I automatically “Like-like” that person.  It’s a common misconception among teenage girls…..which is something I really don’t get. 

My mom has pointed out to me that I have no problem being social with people who have common interests as me.  It’s true.  I can talk to a total stranger about Star Wars or Avengers or The Clone Wars, but if there is no common interest, I get pretty awkward.  :P  So if I am awkward around a guy my age, it’s not because I’m madly in love with him and shy to say anything, it’s because I have no clue how to act in front of him or what to say without sounding like a total idiot because there is no common interest. 

One more thing that I need to get off my chest is that this fact about girls and guys not being able to be friends over the age of ten without it being romantic is true even for internet friendships.  I am friends with a few awesome guys, all really nice and cool, who I talk to often.  We’ll tweet back and forth, email sometimes, and even chat over Skype.  But as soon as my IRL friends (and even my family before I threatened them with my lightsaber) found out about that, I was suddenly in love. Guess what?  I’m not.  I have friends, and there is no crime in that.  Even internet people do that, which is just rude.  I mean, come on, why is it so wrong for two people to be friends?  Just friends?  Why is that so hard for people to wrap their minds around?  Is it that difficult to understand? 

Now I’ll lead into a second part of this post….Valentine’s Day.  Valentine’s Day is today.  Happy V-Day!!!  This is the day we celebrate love….though I think love should be celebrated every day.  The whole “guys and girls can’t be friend” thing is almost put in neon lights during this time of the year.  Friends dare friends to do stupid things, and to say stupid things, and to make moves and all that.  It’s not right.  If you’ve got a boyfriend or a girlfriend, good for you!!!  Celebrate with them!  Show them how much you care!! But if you don’t, don’t moan and whine about how you’re “Forever Alone” because it’s just lame.  I joke around saying I’m “Forever Alone” all the time, just because it’s a funny Tumblr thing.  But in reality, if you say that, and project that attitude, you WILL be alone.  God meant for man and woman to be partners.  He created women to be a companion to men.  Lifelong companions.  He created that person for you.  Don’t do foolish things just because you /think/ you’re in love.  Because guess what?  Your Heavenly Father loves you more than Johnny from Math Class ever will, and He will send that right person into your life when He is good and ready to. 

So don’t rush into things friends, wait upon the Lord, and He’ll show you the path to true love.  I’m letting God write my love story, while I fantasize about it in movies and books.  And that’s cool; it’s fun to think about it now.  Just wait and let HIM do His job, and you’ll get the fairytale ending more amazing than you ever could have dreamed. 

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone… I love you.  :)

Happy Easter!!

I cannot believe that another Easter has come and gone!!!!  That was SO fast!  I feel like it was JUST Christmas!!!!  LOL!

My Easter was fabulous!  I feel so blessed right now!!!!!  My morning started very early because my sister had to be at church really early because she was in the service with her choir.  ;) 

OH MY WORD.  Church was insanely, incredibly and amazingly wonderful!  I could do a whole post JUST on church.  XD  But I'll just put it in with this post.  ;)  I'll go in order though.  No need to get ahead of myself....xD

As tradition states,  my sister's and I's Easter baskets outside the doors to our rooms, and we open them in the hallway.  ;) I was really excited with what I got.  XD  I /finally/ got my Rapunzel Barbie doll from Tangled, (yay!!!!) and I also got the Lemonade Mouth and Tangled soundtracks!!!!!!!!  I'm listening to Lemonade Mouth right now, and I LOVE THESE CDS!!!!!!!!!!  So addicting.  XDD  I also got LOTS OF CANDIES!!!!!!!  I <3 Candy.  Candy is the only reason I celebrate Halloween.  :P

My daddy made a delicious breakfast of french toast and pancakes, and then we (my sister and I) went out into our backyard to have our annual Easter egg hunt.  ;)  I got lots of Jelly Beans. 
Then my sister got dressed, and I checked Blogger and email a little bit.  ;)  I also downloaded my new CD's into my iTunes. 
I got dressed in my pretty yellow dress, my new high heel shoes, and I let my hair curl itself, and got ready for church!! 

(Me in front of the big building we had church at.  :)  oh my gosh, I just posted a picture of me.  :P  ACK!  I hope y'all like that pic.....LOL!) 


CHURCH WAS SO AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!  :D

I could practically FEEL the love for our God coming off in waves off the people there.  Everyone was so nice, and so supportive and just so.....AH!  It was awesome. 

You see, my church is a pretty big church.  It's out-of-the-box.  It's growing.  So, for this Easter, we went to the huge concert/arena place in town.  I'm going to call it the BAC (that's it's acronym anyway, but I don't want to give away too many details.  :P)

My sister was performing, so we had to leave early to go to the BAC, and my mom and I did How To Write A Story program while my dad took my sister back stage.  EVENTUALLY we went in, and met up with my dad's friend from work, who sat with us.  It was REALLY REALLY AWESOME!  :DD  Here's a picture of the BAC when it was filled up.  :)

Actually, this pic doesn't do it justice. :P  It was filled up even all the way in the top rows.  The WHOLE thing was filled with church goers.  :)

Then, the service started.  I had so much fun.  My mom and I were crying ten minutes into the service.  xD  The beginning music was AWESOME!  Lookie!  It's like a concert!!!

I love all the songs that they played.  I sang, raised my hands, and praised the Lord with my voice.  XD  Make a joyful noise.  LOL!

Then my sister ran out, jumped around with a flashlight, and ran off.  I screamed for her.  xD  She was awesome!!!!  They did a 'This Little Light Of Mine' remix.  It was so cool!  LOL!

My dad and sister came back, and the sermon started.  :)  It was really great.  I cried probably five or six times throughout the service.  :P  The ending is what really got to me. 

The pastor gave an old school Bible study this year, and he talked about a story in Luke 24.  :)
It was about this man: Cleopas.  Jesus (after he was Resurrected) came and walked and talked with Cleopas and his buddy Noname (no that's not REALLY his name, but it wasn't mentioned.  XD)  anyway, Cleopas and Noname were kinda  blind because they didn't recognize JESUS was walking with them.  They were chatting with Jesus about all the events that happened to the Son of God, and all this that and the other, and Cleopas schooled Jesus on Jesus!  Then our Paster gave a talk where he named where Jesus is mentioned in every single book of the Bible.  It was very impressive!  :)  The point of the story was that Cleopas had his chance to say yes to Jesus and live the rest of his life for him, but Cleopas missed his chance.  He lost his opportunity.  The pastor's message was all about not loosing out on this opportunity for an exchange.  A Beautiful Exchange. 

When you are saved, you die.  The old you dies.  A new Christ filled you is born.  You are given a beautiful exchange.  Your old sinful life is exchanged for a new, fresh and forgiven one.  :)
This song was played during a very moving video.  It showed very vividly just how the whole exchange thing works. 

There were people in the audience (who were staged) who were wearing grey t-shirts that said something on them.  Everything from "Divorced" to "Addict".  They were all sins.  There were videos about a bunch of the people, and it was so moving.  I cried.  There were TONS of them.  Even the pastor was wearing a shirt.  His said "Unworthy".  The song came to a crescendo and then these girls came and painted glow in the dark paint on the two lead singers.  It was EPIC.  Then, at the big belt-it-out-you-are-saved part of the song, everyone ripped off their shirts to reveal these white shirts with paint splatter looking designs on them, with a big heart in the middle that said "Beautiful Exchange" on it.  Then the lights went out and all the shirts glowed.  I got a shirt.  ;)

I cried so much during that service.  During that song, our pastor did an alter call.  ;)  SO many people were saved!!!!!!  It was amazing!  I cried then too.  So many lives were changed at that service, and you could tell!  I was amazed.  People from all over the auditorium came and were saved that morning.  :)  God is Good!!!!!!

Anyway, it was epic.  I was amazed to see how the Lord works thru our churches, and I realized how huge it is when your life is beautifully exchanged.  I feel blessed.  :)  I feel exchanged. 

After church, we went to grandma and grandpa's house for dinner.  It was very nice.  We ate steak, had fun, got candy (and a bracelet and itunes card!) and I played my viola for everyone!  :)  It was so much fun!!!!  Chibi, Nutmeg and I played outside for a while too.  Tradition.

That was my Easter.  :)  I hope you all had as great of an Easter as I did!!!!  :)

God Bless!

Love,

Miracles....

God is good.  That is a fact.  I have several examples that have made me exteremely happy the past few days.  Also, God loves to prove people wrong.  Especially me.  ;)

My first example happened today.  About three hours ago, at the local library. 

Now I was complaining to my mom to take us home, saying that I hated the library.  Truth was, there's nothing wrong with the libray itself, but the kids from next doors public school who came into the library and were being obnoxious and making me feel uncomfortable.  They were all staring at me like I was some strange freak or something because I wasn't wearing a school uniform and I was carrying a bunch of little kid books for my sister.  After annoying my mom into the checkout, they left me to finish with the books while they went and looked at the Used Book Sale. 

I walked over to the bookstore inside the library, and my sister was all excited.  She called my name and said, "Look!!!!!  Star Wars!!!!!!!!!!!"  Sitting directly in front of her was a pile of Star Wars books.  The pile was at least twenty books high, and the books all looked brand new. 

I almost passed out.  I wanted to scream.  The books were only 25 cents each!!!!!  I was only able to murmur "Oh My God."  But I wasn't using His name in vain, I was in shock and this was a miracle.  The lady had just unpacked these books, and I was the first to even look at them!  I came home with 15 books.  I only paid $3.75 for them.  :D

I am still floating on air.  I'll make a list of the books I got.

Han Solo Trilogy-All three books
Black Fleet Crisis-All three books
I, Jedi
Children of the Jedi
Specter of the Past (I have Visions of the Future)
The 3rd book of the Correlian Trilogy
Darksaber
The first and last books of the Jedi Academy Trilogy (I have the second one)
Planet of Twilight
and The Crystal Star

I'm so excited to read them!!!!!!  Also, my mom found an old Legacy of the Jedi book called Bloodlines.  I didn't even know she had it!!!!  :D

My second little miracle was a real blessing.  My uncle who lives up north sent me a package last week.  Under my address it said "May the Force Be With You".  I was really excited when I found what was inside.

It's a wooden plaque that my uncle made.  He actually made that!!  It says, "Discover a place where wisdom resides within the mist."  I love it.  Thanks Uncle Tom!!!!!!  :D  :D  :D  :D

Other miracles include....

My trip to Celebration V. 
I listened to a radio station that was broadcasting live from CV.  I could literally drive there in a day if I wanted (and if I could...).  I so wanted to go.  I even wrote that night in my journal.....(I'm actually going to give y'all an insight to my journal....this is big.)

"I'm here in my room, on my brand new bed sheets, watching The Clone Wars with Nutmeg.  (My sister is Nutmeg)  I wish I was at Celebration V.  It's so close.  I'm happy and thankful for all I have....but I wish I were in Orlando."

The next morning I was in for the surprise of my life.  My mom shook me awake early that morning.  Like, really early.  I was half awake and I murmured, "What?"  She was trying not to smile.  She asked me if I would mind not going with my dad and sister and cousin that afternoon to go and pick out our new chicks.  I said that I wasn't sure, and asked why.  She was smiling now.  She said, "Because I'm going to take you to Orlando to the convention"

I was wide awake now.  In fact, I sat bolt upright and was shocked.  The first thing I said was "You're lying to me."  then my mom walked away and came back into my room with confromation papers for two tickets to Celebration V Saturday.  I screamed.  I jumped for joy.  I praised God.  My mom said, "You better get ready, we're leaving in a few hours."  I screamed more and ran to eat breakfast.  I flipped out.  Two hours later, I was packed and ready for Orlando.  I called my dad.  I called my grandma.  I called my best friend.  I was so excited.  Now that I think about it....at the time, HU was just a blog.  Nothing more but crazy fangirls posting comments.  So technically I couldn't even tell you guys, because I didn't know you!!!  ;)

Soon, I was in the car, driving to Orlando.  We stopped at a gas station so that I could get snacks, my mom could refuel the mini van, and I could say goodbye to my dad who stopped there on the way to a meeting.  Then we were off.  I talked to my friend on the phone for a while we drove, and then I talked to my mom.

Soon, we were in Orlando.  The next night was heaven on earth.  I stayed in a nice hotel with my mom.  We went to DownTown Disney together and had dinner at Planet Hollywood and then went back to our hotel after shopping for a bit.

The next day was the best day of my life.  I was so happy.  I was beyond happy.  I was overjoyed.
We waited in line to enter the convention center for a few hours.  Before that though, we took a shuttle bus (oooh, shuttle bus.....reminds me of an Owl City Song!!!!)  Anyway....we took a bus and in the bus we saw a guy who used to work at my old Private School.  It was so funny!!!!  My mom and I talked to him for a while and then made our way into the convention center. 

Once I stepped inside, I thought I was going to pass out.  Either that or I was going to pinch myself and wake up.  It was Star Wars Paradise.  I was never so happy in my life.  So many costumes, displays, action figures, and so much more!!!!!  I was so happy!  I spent the whole day there.  It was huge!  :) 

I could go on for hours about my experience at CV, but I'm just going to say that God is good, and I have the best mom in the whole world.  :D  It was so awesome!!! 

I've had other small miracles, like finding things that have been lost, and discovering new things that you fall in love with.  I just have to say that God is an awesome God.  Without Him, we wouldn't have miracles in our lives to make us filled with joy.  I thank the Lord each day for these things, because when I look back and remember them, I remember how blessed I am even when I feel upset or angry about something. 

This song is so inspiring...most of Celtic Women's music is!!!  :D

It's so beautiful!!!!  I love them!!!  :D

Thank you everyone for reading and commenting....you all make me feel so good!!  ;)

Lots of Love,
Jedi~Chick <3

Church and what I got out of it

Last night was church time for me.  I usually attend the Saturday 5 o'clock or Sunday 6 o'clock both at night.  Last night was the Sunday one.  Our church is doing a series called Soul Train, and it's all about Peace, Love and Soul.    Just like those old 70's shows with the crazy clothes, even crazier dancing and all those....funky?....People.  Anyway, last night was all about Peace, and finding Peace in your Soul.

Peace:
You need to find your inner peace, because NOTHING in life will ever be absolutely 100% perfect.  Things will always break down, relationships, people, jobs, school, things won't always work out perfect.  That's because we live in a broken world, or as my church pastor said, a problem planet.

John 16:33 says,  "I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart, for I have overcome the world."

Peace is not found in the "externals" in life, such as jobs, school, friends, relationships, money or anything else.  The only way to actual peace is through Jesus Christ.

Like if someone gets into a fight or something, they hope that an adult or authority figure will come and solve the problem.  Someone will stop the fight.  Jesus is that figure, he is the one who will stop the fight.  You want proactive peace, as my pastor said, not passive peace.  That means get up and DO something. You won't find peace by doing nothing to help yourself.  'God helps those who help themselves' remember?

There are a few ways to find Peace in your life.  I took notes at Church and I'll write them here.

The first way, and probably the most important way, to Peace is Peace With God.

Romans 5:1 says, "Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ"

Accepting Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour gives you peace with God, and because of that he'll give you peace.

The second thing that will help you find Peace is to make sure you're life is free of sin.  Staying with the Soul Train theme at church, Have you jumped the God track?  God has a plan for your life, but the road is straight and narrow.  It is easy to get sidetracked and to move off road of God's track.  Check for sin, and remember that Sin does not make you lose your Salvation, but it does forfeit your Peace.

Another way to help you find Peace is to look back.  Look at all the blessings and miracles God has performed in your past.  It will give you strength when things aren't going so great.  Look for miracles and praise God for the good times.  Even when things are tough, God is still there with you, even in a stormy patch of your life.

Another way to help you find Spiritual Peace is to spend Daily Time with God.  I personally need to get better at this.  I pray all the time, but I need to get better at sitting down and reading my Bible.  I have been doing better lately, and I'm glad for that.
Spend 10-20 minutes a day with God, just talking, reading the Bible, and praying.  It's good for your Spiritual Soul, so to speak.  Your body decays, but your soul is what goes to Heaven.  God is a Dad.  He wants to spend time with his kids.  He likes it when you crawl on his lap and pray to him.  :D

Take care of YOU!
Your Body is a temple of God, keep it in good working order!

Get Organized!  (I need to do this!)
Whether it's with Finances, school, work, or your bedroom, get organized!

1 Corinthians 14:33 says, "For God is not a God of disorder, but of Peace"

Eliminate unnecessary stress and pressures in your life.  God loves order, and peace.

Another way to find Peace is when you have pressures or are struggling, help others.  Not only does it make you feel good, but it makes God feel good also.  Show God's love by meeting the needs of others, even when their needs are probably greater than yours.  Especially then.  Sacrifice your own needs to help someone else meet theirs.

Isaiah 58:10-11 says, "And if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry, and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the day.  The Lord with guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame.  You will be like a well-watered garden like a spring whose waters never fail."

Where God Guides, He Provides.  If you do all of those things, you will find that you are not stressed, you are blessed.  In the words of my P.E. coach, God is a Father who LOVES to bless his children.  He will bless you with a Peace so crazy that it makes no sense.

To get that, you as a Christian need to settle the fight with your old, unsaved self.  They want to suck you back into sin, but the Christian, born again you says no.  You get a soul change the second you become saved.  The Old You is dead and buried, and the brand new you was born to walk in the ways of Jesus Christ.

Stop trying to save the old you, the old you is what is stopping you from getting your Christian Peace.

James 4:1 says, "What causes fights and quarrels among you?  Don't they come from your desires that battle within you?"
In other words, You are at war with yourself.  I've read this sort of thing happen a lot in Fanfiction and SW books.  In a lot of books, the main villain is the Main Character's own self doubt.

To end the fight with yourself, commit FULLY to Jesus, say from the top of your head to the tips of your toes, you are 100% God's.  Jesus will end the fight, let him win.  Stop trying to fight, let Jesus settle the deal, and end the fight.

That was my first "serious" post.  Expect more of that.  I think that I will do a summary of the Church sermon every week, if anything for my own self to reinforce what I learned.  I hope that this post was Okay....remember I am still new at this!!  ;)

God Bless, and Please Comment, ;)
Jedi~Chick <3

I still just LOVE this picture!!!!  It went with this post so.....I'm re-posting it! :D