It's been a while, hasn't it? Well, school and other things have come in the way of 2Thine again....sadly. I have a bit of time to catch all of you, my lovely friends, up with what's been going on with me.
1. School has been crazy. We're kinda cramming in a way, because May is coming and we have a LOT going on in May. :P
2. I JUST auditioned in my orchestra. I feel pretty confident, but also kinda nervous as to if I'll get chosen to move up or not. I'm hoping that the odds will be in my favor. (this leads me into the next point...)
3. I am officially a fan of The Hunger Games. I'll discuss this more after my list. I like lists.
4. Pinterest occupies a lot of my time. My username on there is @FallonSkywalker (same as Twitter) if you care to follow me. I am enjoying it immensely.
5. The Avengers is in TEN DAYS PEOPLE. TEN.
Okay, now I shall write my thoughts on The Hunger Games, from MY WORLDVIEW. So haters and other people who do not like my worldview, chill. My thoughts, my words, my opinion. Just getting that out there. XD
First off, to quiet those who might call me a "follower" or a "sheep" or whatever, due to the popularity of the book series, which partly is due to the fact that the movie had just recently come out (I really want to see it now XD), I have been meaning to read these books for some time. My lovely cousin Embie read them about two years ago, and recommended them to me back then, with the warning that they were somewhat disturbing and very violent. At that time, my exposure to sci-fi and more horror-ish things in general was very non-existent, and I had no desire to read something scary. And thinking about it, I probably wouldn't be able to tolerate it. But after Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, and several super-hero movies, I am quite immune to violence and such things, and also very good at getting attached to characters whose fates are doomed. XD
Thus, with the popularity of these books that I hadn't even thought about for two years, I was very intrigued to know WHY the rest of the world liked them so much. I wanted to know what the deal was about "Team Peeta" and "Team Gale" and why "I VOLUNTEER" is such a popular meme.
I have had multiple people recommend the books to me, friends from the internet, "real life", and random acquaintances. Finally I took the plunge about a week ago, breaking open The Hunger Games on Wednesday night of last week.
Two words. Four Thirty.
That is how late I stayed up reading that gosh-darn book. I read the first page with curiosity and speculation, and after that, I could NOT put it down. There were ZERO stopping points in the whole thing. I read and read until I couldn't keep my eyes open. I was 3/4 of the way finished with the book when 4:30am rolled around. I had to wake up at 7am, do Presidential fitness at P.E. the next day, and then teach dance and do dance for 5 hours that afternoon. To say the least, I got home and literally crashed and burned. XD
I was able to pick it up again on Saturday and I finished the book in one sitting. I sobbed through the entire ending, because I was devastated that it wasn't even a spark of happiness. I was miserable all night (and then had to deal with drama on The Lakehouse) so my emotions were in torment all night long. XD It didn't help that on the same night I chose to watch trailers for the movie (I sobbed like an idiot) and then reblog every THG item in sight on Tumblr. And look at merchandise, and listen to the soundtrack for the movie (BEYOND BEAUTIFUL. EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT A FAN, GO LISTEN NOW).
To end that pathetic story, here are my overall thoughts of the book.
Overall Rating: 9.5/10 stars. I take off a half-point for it being too gory in one scene for me to read (I skimmed part of the Tracker Jacker scene XD)
Rating from a Christian perspective: 7ish/10 stars. Depending on how Christian you are judging this by, the book was gory, violent, and scary, and the worldviews in the book were not exactly ideal for all. I personally was not too bothered by it, because it is in fact, a story.
Summary of the book (without spoiling anything): The continent once known as North America is now simply Panem, broken up into 12 (once 13) districts. Each district does a job, mining, agriculture, factories, technology, etc. The immensely oppressive and controlling government, known as The Capitol, proves their power over their citizens once a year with an event entitled "The Hunger Games". The Hunger Games involves two children between the ages of 12 and 18 from each district (one boy and one girl), to be entered into an arena where they all fight to the death. The last person alive is crowned victor and is famous among all of Panem. Katniss Everdeen and Peeta Mellark are entered in the games, and into a new world they never thought they'd get to know, The Capitol. Peeta, who has had a crush on Katniss since childhood, is suddenly forced to kill her.....or is he? Peeta, (being the incredibly sweet and perfect person that he is), makes his plight of the Games to be to save Katniss, and help her win. The two team up when the game suddenly changes, and through unlikely circumstances, they are forced to be in love. But it's all just an act.....right? Find out what happens. ;)
Goriness level: 10 XD It was pretty bad....kids killing kids.....lots of injuries.....fire......death (a lot of it), warfare, blood, bugs, hallucination, etc, etc, etc.
Scare Factor: 8 or 9. I made the mistake of reading these at bedtime/nighttime and ended up having a near-heart attack in my sleep and falling out of bed at 5am. XD
Sadness level: For me? 1000. For others? It depends. Some can read it without being sad, or you have me who sat in a puddle of her own tears sniveling for hours because of the ending to this book. xD
From a literature standpoint: This book was fantastically written. It was written in First Person POV, which was different but also really kinda cool, and very descriptive. It's vivid and fast, and impossible to put down. The dystophian world that Suzanne Collins created is just incredible. I understand so many internet jokes now. xD
Movie? Yes, I really want to see it. I've heard very good things about it. The only thing that tips me off of the movie is that some people read the books AFTER seeing the movie. I want to read the books and be depressed over the characters so i can go to the movies and sob watching my emotions play out on the big screen. If you know what I mean. XD
My recommendation? If you haven't tried it, or are being defiant like I was, just cave and read it. It's so good guys.....I loved it. Very well written and such a great storyline too. Enjoy, and May the Odds Ever be in your Favor. ;)
Well, to round up this post, I am almost done with the second book in The Hunger Games trilogy, Catching Fire, with only three chapters to go. I am literally dying to find out what happens. This book might be as good as (if not better than) the first. :)
May the Force be with you, May the Odds ever be in your Favor, and God Bless my friends. :) I'll be back with more quality posts soon!
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Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Sunday, February 26, 2012
The 11 Tag
I've been tagged by a few of my friends to do this....Amaranthine tagged me, Jamie tagged me, Endor tagged me, and I think a few other friends too! xD
I'll do Jamie's tag, since she tagged me first. XD
2. I live about twenty minutes from the beach, but rarely go...which makes me sad, I love the beach. :(
3. I am in love with Steve Rogers. Love love love love. Captain America is my favorite Avenger, and I love him like crazy. <3
4. My favorite Disney movie is Meet the Robinsons. It's one of the most underrated Disney films out there. Which is sad, because it's amazing. :D
5. I love literature. I just had to read the Odyssey for school, and as much as I thought it was boring, I really enjoyed it. And I had a 6 hour conversation with my mom about it for our Literature Interpretation course. xD
6. I know what S.H.I.E.L.D. from the Avengers movies stands for. Yes, I have it memorized. Strategic Homeland Intervention Enforcement and Logistics Division. ;)
7. My least favorite subject in school has become Science. I have fallen in love with literature and writing, but science and math are on the end of my list. I just don't find them as interesting. :P
8. I love homeschooling. I think one of my favorite parts of homeschooling is the annual FPEA Homeschool convention. I cannot WAIT to go to this year's convention...I love looking at all the curriculum, meeting people, and getting some time to hang at the EPIC hotel. ;D
9. I have a horrible irrational fear of bugs. I do not like them, and freak out easily when it comes to insects. xD Once when I was little, I was playing outside, and a spider crawled on my face. I screamed, sobbed and freaked out for the rest of that afternoon. Me + Bugs = TOTAL FREAK OUT. XP
10. My guilty pleasure is watching Dance Moms. I am addicted to this show...and I blame Amarantine for this obsession...;P I plan on watching the latest episode tonight. :D Don't you judge me...I know it's stupid and demeaning, but I love it. XD LOL how hypocritical of me.....;P
11. I'm sick right now. XD I have a stomach bug or food poisoning or something. Yesterday/last night I felt TERRIBLE, and today I'm doing a bit better. Last night I thought I was dying.....and now I feel much better. I can actually keep down food now, and hopefully I'll be alright. Who needs comfort food? I have my laptop to help me feel better. ;)
And there you have 11 random things about me. Now to answer Jamie's questions...;)
I'll do Jamie's tag, since she tagged me first. XD
The Rules:
1) Post these rules.
2) Post 11 random things about yourself
3) Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post
4) Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer
5) Go to their blog and tell them they’ve been tagged
6) No cop-outs in the tagging section like, “If you are reading this” or “if you follow me”. You have to legitimately tag people!
11 Random Things About Me:
1. I love sushi. Only me and my dad do in our family, and everyone else thinks I'm crazy. xD
2. I live about twenty minutes from the beach, but rarely go...which makes me sad, I love the beach. :(
3. I am in love with Steve Rogers. Love love love love. Captain America is my favorite Avenger, and I love him like crazy. <3
4. My favorite Disney movie is Meet the Robinsons. It's one of the most underrated Disney films out there. Which is sad, because it's amazing. :D
5. I love literature. I just had to read the Odyssey for school, and as much as I thought it was boring, I really enjoyed it. And I had a 6 hour conversation with my mom about it for our Literature Interpretation course. xD
6. I know what S.H.I.E.L.D. from the Avengers movies stands for. Yes, I have it memorized. Strategic Homeland Intervention Enforcement and Logistics Division. ;)
7. My least favorite subject in school has become Science. I have fallen in love with literature and writing, but science and math are on the end of my list. I just don't find them as interesting. :P
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| my current course is the physical science one at the very end of the first row. |
8. I love homeschooling. I think one of my favorite parts of homeschooling is the annual FPEA Homeschool convention. I cannot WAIT to go to this year's convention...I love looking at all the curriculum, meeting people, and getting some time to hang at the EPIC hotel. ;D
| This picture is from last year's convention, when Anakin came with me everywhere. ;) |
9. I have a horrible irrational fear of bugs. I do not like them, and freak out easily when it comes to insects. xD Once when I was little, I was playing outside, and a spider crawled on my face. I screamed, sobbed and freaked out for the rest of that afternoon. Me + Bugs = TOTAL FREAK OUT. XP
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| for the record, I absolutely do not like this movie. XDDD |
10. My guilty pleasure is watching Dance Moms. I am addicted to this show...and I blame Amarantine for this obsession...;P I plan on watching the latest episode tonight. :D Don't you judge me...I know it's stupid and demeaning, but I love it. XD LOL how hypocritical of me.....;P
11. I'm sick right now. XD I have a stomach bug or food poisoning or something. Yesterday/last night I felt TERRIBLE, and today I'm doing a bit better. Last night I thought I was dying.....and now I feel much better. I can actually keep down food now, and hopefully I'll be alright. Who needs comfort food? I have my laptop to help me feel better. ;)
And there you have 11 random things about me. Now to answer Jamie's questions...;)
1. What famous movies have you not seen yet but would like too?
Iron Man 2, Spider-Man 3, and the newest Batman movies. As for famous /classic/ movies, I really want to see Out Of Africa, Casablanca and Sunset Boulevard. ;)
2. What is your opinion of Charlie Brown?
Classic. Every single holiday we watch some Charlie Brown film without fail. ;) I'm looking forward to the Easter Beagle. :D
3. Which of your favorite books would you love to see made into a film and why?
Oooh. Septimus Heap and Mysterious Benedict Society. Mysterious Benedict Society is just crying to be made into a movie, and Septimus Heap the same. Too good of plots to NOT be made into Major Motion Pictures!!! :D
4. What is one of your favorite pass-times?
Swimming during the summer at my grandma's house. Staying up and watching tons of movies with my cousin at the vacation house, and taking out annual "girls" trip to Disney. ;)
5. What type of vehicle would you love to own, from any film, book or even from reality?
An X-Wing. Handsdown an X-Wing. I'd also like a landspeeder and that cool car from Captain America...
6. What movie poster would you LOVE to own if you could have your pick?
Empire Strikes Back poster. Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom poster. Captain America poster. ;)
Yes, all three. And when The Avengers comes out I DEFINITELY want that poster. ;)
7. What is a minor thing you’d like to see in your future spouse?
Blue eyes. Not necessary, but I'd LOVE to have a husband with blue eyes. <333 ;)
8. What is your opinion of snakes?
"Snakes...why'd it have to be snakes..." ~Indiana Jones. ;) I have a thing against snakes since having a terrible dream about them when I was little. I also hate them because my mom does. XD
9. What is a pet peeve you've discovered from being on the blogosphere?
When certain bloggers think they're above others because they have a billion followers. Most of my favorite blogs only have about 15-50 followers. ;)
10. If you could dress up–without any difficulty or thought of cost–as any character, who would it be?
OOHH. Real Jedi Robes so I could Cosplay Jedi Mara Jade-Skywalker. I'd also like to do a totally SA (screen accurate...Savanna's brother Chase taught me that term), Rogue Squadron X-Wing Pilot costume, with a personally designed helmet that would be Fanfic Canon. ;)
11. Where would you like to go on vacation this year?
Disney World, Williamsburg Virginia, Orlando/where-i-was-last-weekend, and maybe Illinois, to visit family. Also anywhere my internet besties live. ;D
Now I write my own questions!!!!
- What is your favorite time of day?
- How many (if any) pets do you have?
- What is your favorite subject in school?
- Do you have a favorite vegetable?
- Star Wars: Original Trilogy or Prequel Trilogy?
- Fanfiction: Yes or No?
- Do you have multiple blogs, or can you only handle one? ;)
- If you had three wishes, what would they be? (no wishing for more wishes!)
- Do you have a favorite song? Why do you like it so much?
- What is your favorite genre to read/write/watch?
- What is one thing you want to do more than anything else in the world?
Have fun!!!!!! :D I tag.....
And anyone else who hasn't been tagged who wants to try this...have at it! ;)
Friday, February 3, 2012
Haters Gonna Hate
This is something I seriously don't understand. Haters.
If you hate something so much, why do you watch it? Why keep up with it? If all it does is annoy you, bother you, upset you and you never are satisfied, why do you keep coming back to the topic? Is it all that important?
I've noticed in recent weeks/months/etc that haters keep popping up everywhere. People who will make you feel bad or feel angry about something that you LOVE and that you are passionate about. They are NEVER satisfied, and they are NEVER happy with just leaving a topic alone. Then they pretend like it's just an opinion and it's a free country.
Honestly, opinion went out the window when the bashing occurred. Here is my personal guide to the How To Avoid Being A Hater. Written by Fallon, the Nice Person.
1. If you don't like something, don't make it such a HUUUUUGEEEE Deal! Chances are, not many people care too much if you hate something with your heart and soul. Example. I HATE Lux and Ahsoka's "relationship" in TCW. I ranted and raved about it for one night, but just among my friends who shared similar opinion (this goes into step 2). I didn't however, carry this on for AGES, making a HUGE deal about how much I HATED it to EVERYONE around me.
2. If you KNOW that someone doesn't like something, DO NOT TALK ABOUT IT WITH THEM. Some of my best friends have very different opinions from me. That's cool, it's a free country. You are allowed your first amendment right (this leads into step 3). But if you know something bothers someone, DO NOT BUG THEM CONSTANTLY ABOUT IT. Example. My extremely good friend Tara hates Duchess Satine. I like Satine. So guess what? We don't talk about Satine with each other!!!! To avoid hurt feelings or bashed characters, we simply don't talk about it!!! IT IS THAT EASY. CLOSE YOUR KEYBOARD/MOUTH AND LEAVE THE SUBJECT ALONE!
3. Do NOT abuse your first amendment right. The first amendment states that you have the right to freedom of speech. Yes, that is true, but DO NOT ABUSE THAT RIGHT. Do not blabber on hurting others for no reason. This rule is simple, your opinion is free to be yours, but it is not meant to be law. It is not the only opinion in the world. DO NOT ACT LIKE IT.
4. Feel free to express your opinion, with OTHER PEOPLE IN MIND. This goes with the second step. If someone doesn't like something, DON'T BRING IT UP JUST TO MAKE THEM UPSET. This also goes for if someone likes something. If they like it, and you don't, just let it go!!! Don't make them feel bad by ruining something they LOVE.
Finally, step five.
5. WWJD? What would Jesus do? Was Jesus a hater? I don't think so. I 'm positive. Jesus was a lover. Be like Jesus, love thy neighbor, love thy enemy, give encouragement and support to those around you. Trivial little things that you hate probably don't matter all that much. It's not very important in the grand scheme of things.
One final thought..... don't let haters get you down! You can't fix them or stop them from hating. Hatah's Gon Hate!
Be yourself, love what you do, and don't be a hater. ;)
If you hate something so much, why do you watch it? Why keep up with it? If all it does is annoy you, bother you, upset you and you never are satisfied, why do you keep coming back to the topic? Is it all that important?
I've noticed in recent weeks/months/etc that haters keep popping up everywhere. People who will make you feel bad or feel angry about something that you LOVE and that you are passionate about. They are NEVER satisfied, and they are NEVER happy with just leaving a topic alone. Then they pretend like it's just an opinion and it's a free country.
Honestly, opinion went out the window when the bashing occurred. Here is my personal guide to the How To Avoid Being A Hater. Written by Fallon, the Nice Person.
1. If you don't like something, don't make it such a HUUUUUGEEEE Deal! Chances are, not many people care too much if you hate something with your heart and soul. Example. I HATE Lux and Ahsoka's "relationship" in TCW. I ranted and raved about it for one night, but just among my friends who shared similar opinion (this goes into step 2). I didn't however, carry this on for AGES, making a HUGE deal about how much I HATED it to EVERYONE around me.
2. If you KNOW that someone doesn't like something, DO NOT TALK ABOUT IT WITH THEM. Some of my best friends have very different opinions from me. That's cool, it's a free country. You are allowed your first amendment right (this leads into step 3). But if you know something bothers someone, DO NOT BUG THEM CONSTANTLY ABOUT IT. Example. My extremely good friend Tara hates Duchess Satine. I like Satine. So guess what? We don't talk about Satine with each other!!!! To avoid hurt feelings or bashed characters, we simply don't talk about it!!! IT IS THAT EASY. CLOSE YOUR KEYBOARD/MOUTH AND LEAVE THE SUBJECT ALONE!
3. Do NOT abuse your first amendment right. The first amendment states that you have the right to freedom of speech. Yes, that is true, but DO NOT ABUSE THAT RIGHT. Do not blabber on hurting others for no reason. This rule is simple, your opinion is free to be yours, but it is not meant to be law. It is not the only opinion in the world. DO NOT ACT LIKE IT.
4. Feel free to express your opinion, with OTHER PEOPLE IN MIND. This goes with the second step. If someone doesn't like something, DON'T BRING IT UP JUST TO MAKE THEM UPSET. This also goes for if someone likes something. If they like it, and you don't, just let it go!!! Don't make them feel bad by ruining something they LOVE.
Finally, step five.
5. WWJD? What would Jesus do? Was Jesus a hater? I don't think so. I 'm positive. Jesus was a lover. Be like Jesus, love thy neighbor, love thy enemy, give encouragement and support to those around you. Trivial little things that you hate probably don't matter all that much. It's not very important in the grand scheme of things.
One final thought..... don't let haters get you down! You can't fix them or stop them from hating. Hatah's Gon Hate!
Be yourself, love what you do, and don't be a hater. ;)
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Hi, I'm Socially Awkward.
*sighs* It's true. I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Most homeschoolers are labeled as "unsocialized". It's true, some of us don't have as many friends (or enemies) as kids who go to public school, but as it's been pointed out by many people, both from the internet, in real life and in my immediate family (thank you Ember), homeschoolers have to actively seek out friendships, so they are naturally less shy than other people.
Ehhh.....I beg to differ. The "seeking out friendships" part has been getting to me recently. It's not that I don't like my friends, or don't have any friends...I do! I have amazing friends! Both in "real life" and on the internet. I love my internet friends just as much as I do my "IRL" friends. I just wish I was a little less weird sometimes.
I mean c'mon. Look at me. I'm a total geek who lives on the internet, has multiple relationships with multiple fictional characters, enjoys watching sappy movies as well as movies that would normally be classified as a "boy movie", a writer, a fan of country music, a dancer and I play viola. How many of those sound normal to you? (if you're my twin, don't say all of them, you do not count. XD)
Who is going to want to be friends with, talk to, or even acknowledge someone like that? Someone who is usually too shy to even make eye contact with other people her age, but can talk to adults without a problem, and teach little kids even easier. Someone who either stays to herself, awkwardly ignoring everyone, or is sitting by herself at the co-op lunch room because her mom was late to pick her up. Someone like me.
I don't always come off as socially awkward, especially on the internet. In "real life"though.....I just can't handle being with other people my age. Other teenagers who are either my age, younger than me, or older than me, I don't do well with. If they're younger, they're usually incredibly immature and hard to keep good conversation with (this isn't judging all younger kids, just some.) And older kids are usually far too cliquey, not wanting anyone or anything else inside their own private little circle of friends. It's hard to meet new people if they don't even notice you exist.
Lately, my best friend (Maryanna) has been trying to get me interested in sitting with the other kids from our group at P.E. This includes a few girls, a ton of guys, and a lot of awkward social tension on my end. I can't seem to make the connection. I am so much better off with younger kids, and adults. My dad says it's normal for me to be awkward with other people my age...because I'm a teenager and at this point in time, everyone is growing and changing and it's not really our faults. My mother, however, has zero sympathy for me, and accuses me of judging others. I am judging. Not mean judging, but you judge all the time. If the chair is wet, you judge that it's not fit for you to sit in. If there is no milk in the refrigerator, you judge that someone else drank it before you could. (stupid analogies, but you get my point.)
I'm not judging cruelly, by looks, or even by the words people speak. As my mother always says, Actions Speak Louder Than Words. I will admit to judging by actions. Is that person good at that sport? Are they nice to the girls? Are they nice to their friends? Do they use bad language? Are they polite? Etc, etc, etc. If the person has poor behavior, than it's my place in my own self to judge what I think about it, and what I should do associating with them. Are they the kind of person that I should be hanging out with?
Now here is where I get confused. Maryanna seems to be having trouble with being "invisible". Especially around guys. I honestly DO.NOT.CARE. if guys notice I exist. Remembering my name now and then would be nice (HELLO I AM WEARING A NAMETAG!), but I don't want them to be giving me their undivided attention or anything like that. When the right guy comes into my life, I'll be ready and waiting. Until then, I don't mind being slightly invisible.
More than judging others, I judge myself. I judge what others will look at. What a nerd I am, my clothes, my interests, my taste in music, my taste in movies, everything.
......
I like Star Wars, which is automatically assumed by the majority of the human race to be a nerdy thing to like. The fact that I live, eat, breath, wear, share, quote, watch, am obsessed with Star Wars doesn't help that. At all.
I am not even gonna say all the times that I've been mocked by my love of country music. Apparently that's weird? Wrong? I don't see why....
Viola? What's a viola? Isn't it just a big violin? What's the difference? I'll show you the difference.
I write? For FUN? I talk about my writing? I care more about characters than I do other people? I am spaced out when playing sports because I'm thinking about my story? What. A. Freak.
.....
I like Star Wars. And Avengers. I understand the comics, and the books, and the movies, and the games. I can relate to boys and girls of all ages, and I have connected with people unlike any other. It's an awesome feeling to be so excited by something and then meet someone who likes it just as much as you do. I can talk to most grown men, having intellectual conversations with them, and even impress them with my knowledge. I don't let my "geekiness" hold me back from being bold about my fandoms. I'll wear my Captain America shirt in public, proudly and my Her Universe shirt with even more pride. I am a fangirl! Hear me roar!!!
Country music? I LOVE country music! I know all the words to most of all the songs! I can sing Brad Paisley like a pro, and belt out Carrie Underwood extremely off key and no where near her amazing voice, but I do it with joy and with pride. Luke Bryan, Josh Turner, Brad Paisley, The Band Perry, Rodney Atkins, Blake Shelton, Miranda Lambert, Lady Antebellum.....these are my artists and bands. Not Lady Gaga or Katy Perry, these people have good souls, good hearts for God, and they aren't afraid to show it. :)
What's a Viola? Only the best instrument ever! It's unique, it's pitched lower than the violin! It's deeper, richer and harder to play! I have to dig into that thing....it's making me stronger. I'm learning to play like a professional, so that someday, I might be one. I can play Indiana Jones, Star Wars, ET, Superman and other themes in a heartbeat. I am learning the classics, Handel, Beethoven, Dvorak, Mozart! I am a violist, and I'm proud!
I write. I write for FUN. I LOVE to write. It is my passion! I'm not ashamed!!! It's the most thrilling feeling to get lost in your character's dialogue so much that 1000 words later you can go back and read your work with such excitement at what you've written. I've written two novels. TWO. How many kids my age can say that? Not many. I weave tales all the time. I have thoughts going through my brain too often about how much I love to read, and how i love to write, and how I just want to get back home to my computer so I can finish this chapter or finish this paragraph. I'll stay up to the early hours of the morning, writing. People asked at P.E. why I was so tired Thursday morning. I told them that I was up until 3:30am. "What?!?" they exclaim, "Doing what?!!" I respond with "Writing." and their confused expression is priceless. ;)
I'm an author. I love what I do. I love to write, and I thank God for that gift every day. I am proud.
......
Don't be afraid of being yourself!!!!! To Thine Own Self Be True.
You are cool. You are awesome. You don't need anyone to tell you that but yourself. God already knows it, so woman (or man) up and tell YOURSELF this! Who cares what other people think? I sure don't!!! I am 100% fine with being a nerd/geek/loser/weirdo/dork. I am! I am happy with my "boy movies". I'm happy with my "lame country-hick music". I'm happy with my viola, with my dance, with my writing. With my life.
I am happy. I am fulfilled. I am loved.
I don't need to be popular, or cool, or liked by other people my age. I'm okay with my friends that I have. With my best friends, Maryanna and my best friend/cousin Ember. We'll be weird together. I'm okay with my internet buddies....they understand me, and they care about me! What else do I need? A little human interaction here and there would be nice...but I am no where near concerned about being "socialized". No, I don't like other people my age. I still feel really weird, and problematic, and awkward, but I know in my heart, and in my soul that I am the Daughter of a King who is greater than ALL of that. He created me, to be me. I shouldn't let anyone, ANYONE, hold me back from what my God has in store for me.
God Bless, and stay weird! :D
Ehhh.....I beg to differ. The "seeking out friendships" part has been getting to me recently. It's not that I don't like my friends, or don't have any friends...I do! I have amazing friends! Both in "real life" and on the internet. I love my internet friends just as much as I do my "IRL" friends. I just wish I was a little less weird sometimes.
I mean c'mon. Look at me. I'm a total geek who lives on the internet, has multiple relationships with multiple fictional characters, enjoys watching sappy movies as well as movies that would normally be classified as a "boy movie", a writer, a fan of country music, a dancer and I play viola. How many of those sound normal to you? (if you're my twin, don't say all of them, you do not count. XD)
Who is going to want to be friends with, talk to, or even acknowledge someone like that? Someone who is usually too shy to even make eye contact with other people her age, but can talk to adults without a problem, and teach little kids even easier. Someone who either stays to herself, awkwardly ignoring everyone, or is sitting by herself at the co-op lunch room because her mom was late to pick her up. Someone like me.
I don't always come off as socially awkward, especially on the internet. In "real life"though.....I just can't handle being with other people my age. Other teenagers who are either my age, younger than me, or older than me, I don't do well with. If they're younger, they're usually incredibly immature and hard to keep good conversation with (this isn't judging all younger kids, just some.) And older kids are usually far too cliquey, not wanting anyone or anything else inside their own private little circle of friends. It's hard to meet new people if they don't even notice you exist.
Lately, my best friend (Maryanna) has been trying to get me interested in sitting with the other kids from our group at P.E. This includes a few girls, a ton of guys, and a lot of awkward social tension on my end. I can't seem to make the connection. I am so much better off with younger kids, and adults. My dad says it's normal for me to be awkward with other people my age...because I'm a teenager and at this point in time, everyone is growing and changing and it's not really our faults. My mother, however, has zero sympathy for me, and accuses me of judging others. I am judging. Not mean judging, but you judge all the time. If the chair is wet, you judge that it's not fit for you to sit in. If there is no milk in the refrigerator, you judge that someone else drank it before you could. (stupid analogies, but you get my point.)
I'm not judging cruelly, by looks, or even by the words people speak. As my mother always says, Actions Speak Louder Than Words. I will admit to judging by actions. Is that person good at that sport? Are they nice to the girls? Are they nice to their friends? Do they use bad language? Are they polite? Etc, etc, etc. If the person has poor behavior, than it's my place in my own self to judge what I think about it, and what I should do associating with them. Are they the kind of person that I should be hanging out with?
Now here is where I get confused. Maryanna seems to be having trouble with being "invisible". Especially around guys. I honestly DO.NOT.CARE. if guys notice I exist. Remembering my name now and then would be nice (HELLO I AM WEARING A NAMETAG!), but I don't want them to be giving me their undivided attention or anything like that. When the right guy comes into my life, I'll be ready and waiting. Until then, I don't mind being slightly invisible.
More than judging others, I judge myself. I judge what others will look at. What a nerd I am, my clothes, my interests, my taste in music, my taste in movies, everything.
......
I like Star Wars, which is automatically assumed by the majority of the human race to be a nerdy thing to like. The fact that I live, eat, breath, wear, share, quote, watch, am obsessed with Star Wars doesn't help that. At all.
I am not even gonna say all the times that I've been mocked by my love of country music. Apparently that's weird? Wrong? I don't see why....
Viola? What's a viola? Isn't it just a big violin? What's the difference? I'll show you the difference.
I write? For FUN? I talk about my writing? I care more about characters than I do other people? I am spaced out when playing sports because I'm thinking about my story? What. A. Freak.
.....
I like Star Wars. And Avengers. I understand the comics, and the books, and the movies, and the games. I can relate to boys and girls of all ages, and I have connected with people unlike any other. It's an awesome feeling to be so excited by something and then meet someone who likes it just as much as you do. I can talk to most grown men, having intellectual conversations with them, and even impress them with my knowledge. I don't let my "geekiness" hold me back from being bold about my fandoms. I'll wear my Captain America shirt in public, proudly and my Her Universe shirt with even more pride. I am a fangirl! Hear me roar!!!
Country music? I LOVE country music! I know all the words to most of all the songs! I can sing Brad Paisley like a pro, and belt out Carrie Underwood extremely off key and no where near her amazing voice, but I do it with joy and with pride. Luke Bryan, Josh Turner, Brad Paisley, The Band Perry, Rodney Atkins, Blake Shelton, Miranda Lambert, Lady Antebellum.....these are my artists and bands. Not Lady Gaga or Katy Perry, these people have good souls, good hearts for God, and they aren't afraid to show it. :)
What's a Viola? Only the best instrument ever! It's unique, it's pitched lower than the violin! It's deeper, richer and harder to play! I have to dig into that thing....it's making me stronger. I'm learning to play like a professional, so that someday, I might be one. I can play Indiana Jones, Star Wars, ET, Superman and other themes in a heartbeat. I am learning the classics, Handel, Beethoven, Dvorak, Mozart! I am a violist, and I'm proud!
I write. I write for FUN. I LOVE to write. It is my passion! I'm not ashamed!!! It's the most thrilling feeling to get lost in your character's dialogue so much that 1000 words later you can go back and read your work with such excitement at what you've written. I've written two novels. TWO. How many kids my age can say that? Not many. I weave tales all the time. I have thoughts going through my brain too often about how much I love to read, and how i love to write, and how I just want to get back home to my computer so I can finish this chapter or finish this paragraph. I'll stay up to the early hours of the morning, writing. People asked at P.E. why I was so tired Thursday morning. I told them that I was up until 3:30am. "What?!?" they exclaim, "Doing what?!!" I respond with "Writing." and their confused expression is priceless. ;)
I'm an author. I love what I do. I love to write, and I thank God for that gift every day. I am proud.
......
Don't be afraid of being yourself!!!!! To Thine Own Self Be True.
You are cool. You are awesome. You don't need anyone to tell you that but yourself. God already knows it, so woman (or man) up and tell YOURSELF this! Who cares what other people think? I sure don't!!! I am 100% fine with being a nerd/geek/loser/weirdo/dork. I am! I am happy with my "boy movies". I'm happy with my "lame country-hick music". I'm happy with my viola, with my dance, with my writing. With my life.
I am happy. I am fulfilled. I am loved.
I don't need to be popular, or cool, or liked by other people my age. I'm okay with my friends that I have. With my best friends, Maryanna and my best friend/cousin Ember. We'll be weird together. I'm okay with my internet buddies....they understand me, and they care about me! What else do I need? A little human interaction here and there would be nice...but I am no where near concerned about being "socialized". No, I don't like other people my age. I still feel really weird, and problematic, and awkward, but I know in my heart, and in my soul that I am the Daughter of a King who is greater than ALL of that. He created me, to be me. I shouldn't let anyone, ANYONE, hold me back from what my God has in store for me.
God Bless, and stay weird! :D
Friday, January 27, 2012
From the Eyes of a Writer
As a growing writer, I tend to see things differently than the average person. I don't always notice that I do, but yet, it happens.
I find myself thinking of a story for something as small as a little flower growing as a weed in a flower garden, to a random person in the mall eating a cheeseburger. It's a little weird, and quite funny.
I have bizarre hobbies too, like people-watching (AKA stalking, lol), and character discussing. It's fun!
I can't watch movies the same way anymore. I look at the deeper plot more than the special effects and acting. I look into the background of the movie and the depth of the different characters. I can think of new plots and storylines and feelings of the characters.
I love it. It makes for a good writer, to be able to come up with things on a whim like that. I am constantly getting ideas in my head. I am constantly needing to write stuff down. Just ask my mom, many times a day I'll stop what I'm doing and run into my room to write down a story idea. Many of them aren't developed (at all) and some of them are just fanfic ideas, but I still write them down, just for the sake of getting the idea out of my head.
I dont' think there's ever been a time where I HAVEN'T been writing a story in my head. Seriously! I remember even when I was a little kid (my earliest "story" memory is probably from when I was six...) I'd walk around the perimeter of the playground at my school (this was before I was homeschooled, obviously) and just think of story ideas in my head. Back then, I called it my "Imaginary Friends". Now, I call them my "Characters". ;) See the difference? I believe that all good writers once had imaginary friends. I know I still do. Their names are Luke Skywalker...Princess Leia....Han Solo.....Mara Jade......Corran Horn....etc. ;)
AND STEVE ROGERS. (okay, i'm done now xD)
Seriously though....I was the queen of angst before it was cool. I was always writing, coming up with, and thinking up very depressing or angsty romances, stories and ideas. I was pretty pathetic actually. (this may end up leading into a post about my social awkwardness that has risen to become a problem as of late...we'll see.)
In short, what I'd like for you to take away from this post is this: If you are a writer, and you see things differently too, that's okay. Embrace it. It just might be your future. Everything happens for a reason, and ultimately, God doesn't make any junk. ;)
Write on....
I find myself thinking of a story for something as small as a little flower growing as a weed in a flower garden, to a random person in the mall eating a cheeseburger. It's a little weird, and quite funny.
I have bizarre hobbies too, like people-watching (AKA stalking, lol), and character discussing. It's fun!
I can't watch movies the same way anymore. I look at the deeper plot more than the special effects and acting. I look into the background of the movie and the depth of the different characters. I can think of new plots and storylines and feelings of the characters.
I love it. It makes for a good writer, to be able to come up with things on a whim like that. I am constantly getting ideas in my head. I am constantly needing to write stuff down. Just ask my mom, many times a day I'll stop what I'm doing and run into my room to write down a story idea. Many of them aren't developed (at all) and some of them are just fanfic ideas, but I still write them down, just for the sake of getting the idea out of my head.
I dont' think there's ever been a time where I HAVEN'T been writing a story in my head. Seriously! I remember even when I was a little kid (my earliest "story" memory is probably from when I was six...) I'd walk around the perimeter of the playground at my school (this was before I was homeschooled, obviously) and just think of story ideas in my head. Back then, I called it my "Imaginary Friends". Now, I call them my "Characters". ;) See the difference? I believe that all good writers once had imaginary friends. I know I still do. Their names are Luke Skywalker...Princess Leia....Han Solo.....Mara Jade......Corran Horn....etc. ;)
AND STEVE ROGERS. (okay, i'm done now xD)
Seriously though....I was the queen of angst before it was cool. I was always writing, coming up with, and thinking up very depressing or angsty romances, stories and ideas. I was pretty pathetic actually. (this may end up leading into a post about my social awkwardness that has risen to become a problem as of late...we'll see.)
In short, what I'd like for you to take away from this post is this: If you are a writer, and you see things differently too, that's okay. Embrace it. It just might be your future. Everything happens for a reason, and ultimately, God doesn't make any junk. ;)
Write on....
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I'm...Alive....*waves little white flag*
I'm not dead!!!!! :D Hooray!!! Yay for aliveness!!!
I have to apoligize....things have been crazy...I've been busy with school, Fangirls on Felucia, and more...that I have been neglecting good old To Thine Own Self Be True...;) Even on her birthday! :'(
So....
Happy Blogoversary to me!!!!! It was technically on Friday....but I'm lazy. XD
Well, onto a real post....
I have quite a few 'real posts' in the works....a bunch of movie reviews....an Avengers fangirl freak out review....and more. But here I'll just do a little bit of all of that.
First, since I'm fresh out of ideas tonight, I'll just fill you in on my life (since it's all about me....no, I'm just kidding, it's all about Him. <3) I just decided that I'll add pictures too. ;) *all pictures are taken by me unless marked otherwise.*
So far....my life has consisted of school. School is eating me alive it seems. I made a pact with mostly myself but also my parents to get my school work done, on time and to the best of my ability this week, or I suffer the consequences. Every hour/day/etc. I don't do something is another hour/day/ect. I have without internet. O.O
Scary, I know. So I better wise up and get my stuff done.....
After school comes Viola. I am really honestly enjoying my viola. I love to play, it makes me feel beautiful and confident when I can belt out a note or song really well. :) My teacher has been incredibly supportive and helpful...I learn something important and new every lesson. It's an amazing feeling.
I've had a concert, and it went well. I was one of 16 out of 51 people who was actually on time for the call-time. ;)
What else occupies my time besides Dance, Viola and School? Well....the internet, of course! :D
Also The Lakehouse Forums....my friends, I know you read this.....I stress many moons over TLF. XD Don't know why really....other than needing to prevent problems and solve problems for people....;)
I have to apoligize....things have been crazy...I've been busy with school, Fangirls on Felucia, and more...that I have been neglecting good old To Thine Own Self Be True...;) Even on her birthday! :'(
So....
Well, onto a real post....
I have quite a few 'real posts' in the works....a bunch of movie reviews....an Avengers fangirl freak out review....and more. But here I'll just do a little bit of all of that.
First, since I'm fresh out of ideas tonight, I'll just fill you in on my life (since it's all about me....no, I'm just kidding, it's all about Him. <3) I just decided that I'll add pictures too. ;) *all pictures are taken by me unless marked otherwise.*
So far....my life has consisted of school. School is eating me alive it seems. I made a pact with mostly myself but also my parents to get my school work done, on time and to the best of my ability this week, or I suffer the consequences. Every hour/day/etc. I don't do something is another hour/day/ect. I have without internet. O.O
Scary, I know. So I better wise up and get my stuff done.....
After school comes Viola. I am really honestly enjoying my viola. I love to play, it makes me feel beautiful and confident when I can belt out a note or song really well. :) My teacher has been incredibly supportive and helpful...I learn something important and new every lesson. It's an amazing feeling.
I've had a concert, and it went well. I was one of 16 out of 51 people who was actually on time for the call-time. ;)
| This is my favorite picture ever. :D |
School and Viola are pretty much all that I've got going for me....other than dance. ;D
I dance once a week, but when I do, I'm at the studio for 5 whole hours. First I teach classes, and I absolutely love it. My baby girls are absolutely adorable, and they really like me. :) It makes me feel needed and special. Haha! I co-teach a class with the owner of the studio, and she pays me in free classes. ;D WOO!
My one class that I take for myself is totally horrible and totally amazing for different reasons. It's amazing because I LOVE my teacher...she's incredible. She's the dance team teacher, and she works us HARD. And she's the sweetest, coolest person ever! :D
The bad part is the other girls in the class. Without trying to sound rude or uppity....I'm definitely the oldest one there, and along with my one friend, I'm the most mature. :P It's pretty bad....these are 12, 13 year olds who are having break ups, catfights, and gossiping like no tomorrow. It's disgusting. They wear NOTHING. XD Literally. I always wear pants or at least capri-work-out pants, and a t-shirt to dance, while these girls wear the tightest fitting tank tops imaginable with shorts that look more like underwear than anything. My head is always aching by the time I leave my class....either that or my ears start to bleed from all the nonsense they speak of...and oh-so-loudly....*rolls eyes*
I wish so desperately I was taking tap class (i'm taking jazz...the tap is way to late...) Tap is by far my favorite type of dance. ;D
| This is my second favorite picture ever!!! :D |
What else occupies my time besides Dance, Viola and School? Well....the internet, of course! :D
Twitter is a great way to reach me by the way. :) I'm constantly on there. @FallonSkywalker if you need me. ;)
Fangirls on Felucia has occupied a lot of my time. Without Savanna riding my back to get the posts finished, I probably would turn FOF into this place! *cricket, cricket*
Seriously though, Fangirls on Felucia is running AWESOME. It's been getting a lot of traffic and feedback, and I am loving every second of it. Savanna, if and when you read this, I love you, and I'm having a blast working with you!!!!!! We'll go far! ;D
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| prototype of our banner, made by me xD |
Also The Lakehouse Forums....my friends, I know you read this.....I stress many moons over TLF. XD Don't know why really....other than needing to prevent problems and solve problems for people....;)
And Tumblr! Ahhhh Tumblr. I love Tumblr actually. My amazing Tumblr is called JediWithAPurpose and you are more than welcome to visit it. ;) http://jediwithapurpose.tumblr.com/
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